Post by bbtgr on Sept 13, 2005 22:29:11 GMT -5
This was inspired in me after KW's recent interview regarding ML....and added to it...the cold winter bg created by Cynthia in the 1st MB house of Love stired up this little scene....hope you gals enjoy... 
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Each snow flakes falling down on the ground as he was staring at them made him feel even worse than what he was. Though it's very cold that day...but it wasn't comparable to how he felt inside. Only those who were awake all nite would know how long a nite could be. He didn't have a wink of sleep since yesterday. The day he had agreed to an interview. The interview which had made him all torned up inside. Though he knew it had to be done, yet how come it felt so wrong for have done it.
All the things he said. It was like it was written for him to recite...And Yes...It was...all was prepared for him....He felt so trapped. Had to do something he had avoided all these years. It had been 20 years...20 years of keeping it inside of him....and when it had to come out, it was all wrong. Not how he really felt inside. Was it for the sake of his family now...his sanity...his peace of mind that he had to do it?
Or was it the real truth that he expressed??? Of course it wasn't for the latter...It was because of the first reason...the only reason that he had to do what he did.....
He stood there in front of the window in his home office....Leaning against the windowsill with his side...Looking at the small snowflake which had just struck the glass right in front of his eyes level.....As it slowly melting away by the warmth from the windowpane...It depicted how he felt inside....his love and his thought for her is just like the small snowflake...slowly fading away through time....It had to be the reason why he had said what he did....
All these time....since the first day she left him...left him with a void in his heart. How he eluded and evaded the interrogations by those who wanted to know how he really feel inside for her.....the one he can never forget...Yung Mei Ling....the name is engraved in his heart...deep down in his marrow....The real motivation that gave him courage to go on ....Go on with the life he has now....The life which he thought would help him to forget her. Yet...however long it had been...It was just like yesterday....Time seems to stand still when it comes to her....Nothing is changed...Nothing at all....
And yet....his words...the words which came out of his mouth...told a different story...A story that even he could never think of....How could he say all that .....How could he just say something which is the total opposite of how he felt...of the TRUTH...the real TRUTH which he had to swallow up and keep it deep down in his soul.....where no one can see.....The place where he will bring with him to his grave....
KW closed his eyes as a heavy sigh exhaled from the bottom of his heart..."Mei Ling...I'm sorry....I'll always love you.." was all he could say .....
Sometimes the truth shouldn't be revealed...
"I love you" is really how I truly feel....
Yet circumstance is not within my control...
It was like I took on another role....
The part which I don't want to take...
Coz it made me feel like nothing but fake...
For the truth is always there....
Yet I just can not share....
Keep it deep within my soul...
It's you I'll never ever let go....
"Mei Ling...I love you..."
And that's the TRUTH...
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Each snow flakes falling down on the ground as he was staring at them made him feel even worse than what he was. Though it's very cold that day...but it wasn't comparable to how he felt inside. Only those who were awake all nite would know how long a nite could be. He didn't have a wink of sleep since yesterday. The day he had agreed to an interview. The interview which had made him all torned up inside. Though he knew it had to be done, yet how come it felt so wrong for have done it.
All the things he said. It was like it was written for him to recite...And Yes...It was...all was prepared for him....He felt so trapped. Had to do something he had avoided all these years. It had been 20 years...20 years of keeping it inside of him....and when it had to come out, it was all wrong. Not how he really felt inside. Was it for the sake of his family now...his sanity...his peace of mind that he had to do it?
Or was it the real truth that he expressed??? Of course it wasn't for the latter...It was because of the first reason...the only reason that he had to do what he did..... He stood there in front of the window in his home office....Leaning against the windowsill with his side...Looking at the small snowflake which had just struck the glass right in front of his eyes level.....As it slowly melting away by the warmth from the windowpane...It depicted how he felt inside....his love and his thought for her is just like the small snowflake...slowly fading away through time....It had to be the reason why he had said what he did....
All these time....since the first day she left him...left him with a void in his heart. How he eluded and evaded the interrogations by those who wanted to know how he really feel inside for her.....the one he can never forget...Yung Mei Ling....the name is engraved in his heart...deep down in his marrow....The real motivation that gave him courage to go on ....Go on with the life he has now....The life which he thought would help him to forget her. Yet...however long it had been...It was just like yesterday....Time seems to stand still when it comes to her....Nothing is changed...Nothing at all....
And yet....his words...the words which came out of his mouth...told a different story...A story that even he could never think of....How could he say all that .....How could he just say something which is the total opposite of how he felt...of the TRUTH...the real TRUTH which he had to swallow up and keep it deep down in his soul.....where no one can see.....The place where he will bring with him to his grave....
KW closed his eyes as a heavy sigh exhaled from the bottom of his heart..."Mei Ling...I'm sorry....I'll always love you.." was all he could say .....
Sometimes the truth shouldn't be revealed...
"I love you" is really how I truly feel....
Yet circumstance is not within my control...
It was like I took on another role....
The part which I don't want to take...
Coz it made me feel like nothing but fake...
For the truth is always there....
Yet I just can not share....
Keep it deep within my soul...
It's you I'll never ever let go....
"Mei Ling...I love you..."
And that's the TRUTH...
